FMR Book Grind: REVIEW and RELEASE DAY PROMO ~ Joseph Fallen by M.S. Willis

There is a fine line between genius and madness…
Between love and hate,
Between right and wrong.
Joseph had created The Estate for her…
His wife,
The woman he chose to bear his child.
She was beauty unsurpassed;
And her song was unlike anything he’d ever known.
However, their love was a story that would not find a happy ending.
In this prequel novel to the Estate series, follow Joseph Carmichael as he creates a world unlike any other. Because, in order to comprehend The Estate, you must understand Joseph; but, in order to understand Joseph, you must discover how a man falls from light into the pitch black depths of ultimate darkness.

5+++++ Stars!!!

Please heed the following:

This was a horrifyingly painful, excruciatingly agonizing book for me to read. Even after days of reading it, I'm incapable of informative and/or flowery words. I feel so much heartache and despair. You'll have to make do with this gif review.

And here we go.

Prologue is epic and warns you ahead of time that this isn't Disneyland with rainbows and unicorns.

^^^DISNEY IT AIN'T!!

The very beginning had me:

I really liked seeing Joseph's character here. The deeply passionate love he has for his wife Arianna moved me to tears. That love, however, morphs into something so dark, something so intricately twisted both Joseph and Arianna don't realize it until it's too late.

Then there was a M.A.J.O.R. turning point for me and I was like:

THEN

*the

real*

*horror

begins*

Me at 26%

Me at 37%

^^Yeah he did. I just about puked my guts BUT I held on.

Me at 53%

^^In the reading world, I puked. A lot. And my heart broke because a certain someone I really loved didn't.....make it. *voice cracks*

Me at 68%

Me at 79%

I want to weep for humanity.

Me at 84%

^^Passed out. I took a reader's advice and stopped to breathe.

Me at 97%

I dropped my iPad like it was on fire and jumped into bed and curled up in a ball. To put it shortly, would I want to be in that situation?

Me at 100%

This ending...I was disgusted, yet....I felt sorrow for Joseph. For the man he was. For the man he became. For the man he will be in Madeleine, Abducted.

My book thoughts

This book tested me. Sure, Madeleine, Abducted did as well, but this one is what I would truly call dark. Plenty of gore. Guaranteed to inflict mental damage. Will stun you with its brutality. This novella does detail what made Joseph into the twisted, insane man in MA. The reason why I think this book was so emotionally devastating for me was because there is no happy ending. Everything that happens, everything that amounts to something significant was all....for nothing? You know that feeling? The one where you build up so much hope and progress, and then....it turns into ash. Into nothing. That kind of emotion devastates me, and to feel it over and over and over again here...

Right now, my eyes are swollen from crying and rubbing them, my hair is all frazzled and shit, and I wrung my hands so much I cut myself with my nails.

As always, M.S. Willis does a magnificent job portraying events with her evocative writing style. I have quotes highlighted from left to right, and just reading them makes me feel so much pain, anger, fear, and hopelessness. For once, I didn't bring any quotes in because this emotionally tumultuous and tragic tale needs to be fully experienced from the very beginning to the very end.

Now excuse me while I go to the corner and just...sit there. In a daze. And maybe cry a little more.

ARC kindly provided by author in exchange for an honest review.

~Feifei